Reminiscing

Giving it up was the hard part; realizing that it was not worth it was even harder. I know that it might be best for me, but it's so hard to see it disappear just like that. Thought I'd be able to gain something out of this .. but I haven't seen anything yet. Maybe I have to wait a bit longer? Idk. Feelin' so bad because I've let so many people down, I didn't think they'd really care that much about it though. Actually, come to think of it, nobody really cared until I brought it up. So it's whatever now. I'm tired of feelin' upset over the same bs constantly. What's past is past; I only have to worry about the present and future.

No shit I'm not alright .. just tryna cover it up cuz I thought you'd be able to figure it out yourself by now. Did this all for you and you just disappeared. Vanished and never came back. Thought you avoided me because it basically took over my life. Thought you avoided me because you thought I wouldn't have the time. Thought you avoided me because it was all I ever talked about. Well, here I am.
Wish you'd care more, but, I can't change you right? Really, I'm not tryn to. Just wanted something for you to think about. There's always this guy, then there's that guy, then back to this guy, and then, BAM! Karma just smacked you hard. It's a bitch ain't it? And what do you do? Come cryin to me like you always do. Just when I think there's a little spark that slowly ignites, it fades before it can no longer continue on. There you go again ..just like music on repeat.